I keep tabs on people that I shouldn't (and really don't) care about. But in reading someone's blog, I found that the whole sadness thing is a human thing, not just a Megan being retarded thing. I want what I had; I want that security, but I don't want to be dependent. There's something special about the kind of hug that engulfs you and makes you feel safe. And that, more than anything, is what I miss most. If that's all I want, how come I can't find it anywhere??