It's been a while since I wrote here, but I've been inspired. I found out last week that I've been so moody that even other people are noticing. And I feel bad. I've been trying so hard to spend time with Michael that I've actually been pushing him away. And that makes me sad, because I have no reason to push him away. And I worry about him sometimes. He's so closed off, and he never wants to talk about what's bugging him, but it gets so that it affects the time we spend together. It is kinda frustrating, but I still love him, and I'm crazy about him, and I want to make it work. This last week, with bth of us being sick, was good because it made me totally appreciate seeing him on Friday night, because I got to spend some time with him, and we were able to just relax, no fighting, no frustration, just us. The way it should be. And, of course, we're both happier when that happens.